Hey guys, long time no see =) Dint have internet the past few days (im living at 2 relative’s houses in Beijing. One has internet while the other doesn’t. Anyway im in my mom’s friend’s house now, using their internet =P dunno when id be able to go to the other relative’s house =(). Hope you guys are all doing fine. Good luck for the common tests (sorry this sounds so MSNy) Dint really do much over e past few days (got new specs! =P and watched Red Cliff) Hope you guys are missing me, cause im missing you guys loads.
Saw the book the 2J people made for me, thank you guys a bunch bunch! =D Honestly im pretty bored here, no “long-term” internet. I had this post done beforehand. Just went on this “tour bus” around Beijing ytd, had to queue for like 2 hours!! My god this Olympic Games is more of a “game of ENDURANCE” than I thought! (which conveniently, I am losing at).
I will be going Canada on the 17th of August (and in case there are laggers out there, im currently in Beijing). Oh and yeah, I’ve made a video out of the pictures I’ve taken during my last few days, still finding a way to send it over (its about 65 MB, any bright ideas?). Hope you guys will read the stuff written below, especially the lower one, and comment. Hehe...THANK YOU!!
Reflection VS Refraction
I think there are two kinds of people in this world when facing problems: People who reflect, and people who refract. People who reflect hit the problem and bounce back, reflect upon their mistakes and make another attempt on the same problem. Also there will be those who refract. They change their course in the face of the problem and seek a new way out. Either that or they change the situation itself, but creating a new problem. Of course I’d love to mention those who’d simply crumple in the face of the problem, but uh...never mind. Here’s a typical example, me going to Canada! Haha. I had a different view of Singapore’s education system; I wish to obtain more from the Western one, so I decided to go to Canada. Refraction. Of course I think some people could have changed themselves and blend Western ideas into Singapore’s education (on themselves, not the system itself). These are people of Reflection. Of course this idea is too abstract for me (thats the whole point I dint choose this route, but I did try it). Sometimes reflection is harder than refraction, and sometimes otherwise. What kind of person do you think you are (most of the time)?
Oh and another thing I’ve noticed through trip to England with the SE (but I believe it can be in any single society, even 2J). I have been the victim of this too. Some members of the society brainwash others (esp the more junior group) by injecting ideas against a certain somebody (most of the time). When influenced, any action by that somebody might open a new and unnecessary wound. Any friendly gesture is an attack, any word becomes an insult. It saddens me. Everyone has his bad and good points. This is a statement so commonly known yet so ignored. It is only true that some people’s bad points are more obvious and infuriating than others. No one was born equal, after all. There is no right for one to dislike someone but influence other people too. At least, I think, we should give other people a chance to have an idea of that someone on their own. This brainwash is even more powerful than any virus. In fact, a virus connects people together when they work towards the common goal to destroy it, but brainwashing separates a group. I have ignored this problem; I have been influenced without realising it; I will not do it again, and I hope no one who has read this will.
P.S. Eh...May I know who gave me the book on Mental Chemistry before I left...? =D
P.S.S. Thank you Limin for that poem you wrote =D And stop betting on Seaweed Chicken =P
Cheers mates! I’m missing you guys loads (to the power of 10000), but I’m missing the future I long for even more...
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I would miss every one of you in Canada but here are some words i'd like to leave. I shall 1st start with my current class 2J and SE.
2J
Charmaine Lee: Keep true to friends and touch others like you did to me! Never seen such a patient and nice girl like you. It has been a real pleasure to be able to work with you in some projects.
Serene: I know we haven't talked much but i wish you all the best in the future. Study hard but most importantly smartly. But who says it's all about studying eh? Really depends on how you want your future to be! =)
Grace: It was truly an unforgetable experience to have met you. You have always been a source of laughter and enthusiasm (and volume) for not just me but the whole class. You have always been a caring classmate and I believe everyone would miss you after graduation. Thank you for your video!!
Samantha: There's a positive side to everything.
Charmaine Neo: You don't talk much either, but I know you are thoughtful person. Thank you for that handmade doll thingy, I'm very touched. Well, some people are more introvert, but who says they don't have a mind and strong opinions of their own? Of course, if you don't wanna tell anyone else, at least discuss any thoughts or feelings with your best friend! Ha ha, wishing you all the best as well.
Natasha: You have been an extemely fun and enthusiastic girl (like grace) and I know I could count on you to bring the mood of any meeting up =D. Balancing social and academic life so well, I think you ought to be someone to look up to! =)
Ming Wei: We didn't talk much either. Haha...stay happy and true to friendship!
Qian Hui: You were an amazing girl (I mean guitar drums violin piano fencing what the heck?!). I do hope that you will not give up in WHATEVER you do. If you follow one path and continue walking despite being bored of the scenery around, I am sure you would reach a new place eventually with a scenery you have never seen before.
Rachel: You've been yet another fun girl to know. Keep laughing and smiling (you'll live longer but get more wrinkles xD). Your ability to find inspiration and special feelings in anything so ordinary amazed me (although you my not have noticed). I shall look up to you too, eh?
Aileen: All the best and stay smart (at math), too bad I couldn't learn more from you! =(
Clara: I believe you are yet another girl to look up to. Hard work and the determination to do EVERYTHING well...Indeed I should have learnt from you. Wishing you all the best to pursue a bright, bright future!
Emily: Very happy to have worked with you for IDMI, haha. As said, quietness does not mean unthoughtfulness. I believe you still have many bright ideas of your own but not expressing them openly.
Jasmine: Haha, wish you'd keep smiling too. Keep a positive mindset at all times, haha! Wishing you well in whatever you do.
Janet: It has been real nice to have met you. Your wisdom and thoughfulness of speech really impressed me. Also I think you have been a rather sensitive person (typical LA people 0.0) Ha ha, wishing the brightest future that you would wish =P
Kimberly: Haha, never knew you would be emotional too. Anyways, never had a chance to talk to you very much. But all the same, I hope you'd do well in whatever you do.
Sharon: Hiya chairperson! Very nice to have met you and stood under your leadership. Stay sleepy! =P
Jia Min: You've been an extraordinary person. You care for people and have great organisation skills. Furthermore, I believe you always attempt a higher level of thought (although sometimes in the wrong direction esp in history =P). I believe you are very hardworking but most importantly I admired the way you treated friends so sincerely. Will look up to you as my role model and mirror, always.
Jun Yi: Heyy! Let's see... we've been friends for like what...6 years?!(3/1 to 2J?) You've always been such a "giggly" girl and brought about laughter to everyone around you. And of course not forgetting smart =) these 6 years of friendship had not mounted to nothing though. I will never forget you and all of the people from 6/1 cause without the lessons and experiences i've had there with you guys, I've truly grown to a better person (at least i think). Keep your brightness!=D
Cheng Yee: Thank you for your tireless (and rather frequent and pops out of nowhere) laughter. You have brightened every school day in the class. Thank you and good luck!
Sally: Haha, I think you've been another quiet but thoughtful person. I was happy to have been classmates with you!
Shi Hui: Nothing beats hard and smart work! heh xD
Yi Jia: Thank you for the laughter and brightness you've brought to my (and of course the class)'s life. You've always been a victim and audience for all the crappy jokes and tricks, haha! It is my great pleasure to have met you, too.
Wen Ting: We worked together in IDMI! =D You were really hardworking and determined. I am sorry I didn't do too much, though. Haha...
Qiu Rui: Heyy we didn't talk much either. But I have always admired your love for language (chinese of course). Be positive and happy and brighten the mood of the ones around you. Friendship is a rather mutual thing. Yu brighten your friends and your friends brighten you. True friendship is hard to come by, don't neglect any friends until you lose 'em! Haha...
Limin: It has been EEEEEEEEExtemely nice to have met a girl like you! I've admired so much of your hard work and of course thoughtfulness in everything you do. Always trust in your friends for if they are true to you they would definitely lend a listening ear to your problems. Balance your life and learn the power of dedication. Sometimes having many many achievments for academy does not feel as good as to feel happy and bright about life! Will miss you loads and stay in touch. Stay IMBA!
Sin Yee: Heyy I still remember all the fun times we had together and I would remember those forever. Keep close to your family and friends (like now) for they will always be by your side in times of need(like me now). There are reasons why different parents treat their children differently, but it all boils down to all parents care for their children (just in case you face problems). Wish you a bright bright future and the bestest of the best in everything you do!
Bryan: Of course people all have good and bad sides. Your less acceptance in the class only shows that your bad sides are more obvious than other people's bad sides. The world is never fair, you'll have to find your fair share yourself. Make your own world fair. No one can help you at this but I do hope you will find this path yourself. Believe in yourself, but don't boast about it, for every one could more easily believe you too.
Gordon: I think I'll never ever meet such an extraordinary guy like you! Your leadership, friendliness, sensitivity, hard work, determination, confidence are all worth my learning! But do inject some fun into your life (as I have learnt). You've only got one life, live it to the fullest. While you're still young, why not enjoy some things that young people like? You will never get your youth back if you miss experiencing it to the fullest!
Yiren: Just in case you don't know, you've been a role model and mirror to me. Though I don't think you're a very good listener, there are no doubt SOME things I could learn from you, and there's proof of those. =)
Yuhua: Thanks for lending me those books! I admired all your braveness and maturity. Will miss you but maybe not your "full-body touch" xP
Haonan: You've been my truest friend and I am SSOOO touched by your video. Pay more attention in class, though, I dunno why you talk to yourself so often. I think you're a reflective person who knows where is wrong and I do hope sincerely that you would excel and find the brightest path to any of your goals.
Mark: Thanks for brigning all the laughter and being such a fun guy! Hope you remain perfect! WHAHAHAHAHHA!!!
Ze Qing: You do have much potential not released, probably. But you REALLY REALLY should speak up more. Make people hear your ideas and your voice, for in this society, if you can't convince people, they will convince you. Do pay more attention in class though, I think along with the teacher. All the best and nothing but the best. But I could wish only thus far. The rest is up to you to complete.
Wilson: IT HAS BEEN MY HONOUR TO HAVE MET YOU! I would always learn from your positivity and ability to remain joyful and enthusiastic towards everything. Test failure or any problems would never bring you down and I TRULY enjoyed your company!! Stay happy and confident. Will miss you and your laughter MOST.
Zhang Yang: You've been a funny and SENSITIVE character. Wish ye well.
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2:45 AM
*Shakepeare Made Ugly by ZWG
Scene 1 Venice, Enter ANTONIO, SALERIO
and SOLANIO
ANTONIO In sooth, I know not why I am so buay song.
I cannot tahan, you say you also cannot tahan -
But how I kena it, who sabo me,
I am to learn;
And such a siao kia this emo-ness makes of me
I dunno lah!
*No offence to Shakespeare lovers T.T
Credits go to Michelle =D
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6:45 AM
It could merely be a blink of the eye and countless images could flash across your mind. Just as it is, I have come to a one-and-a-half-plus-a-bit-more year in Dunman High, and of course Jubix. And as it is, many have changed.
I have learnt a lot over this year plus. Many many more than I ever would in my Primary School days.
One thing I have learnt of life is about the importance of knowing what you ultimately want your life to be. Of course, everyone would want a "successful" life. But what is successful? Rather what is successful to every one of us. Our choice should affect every choice we make, every decision, every move. If we allow ourselves to wander in a different direction that does not harmonize with this goal, in my opinion, it is drifting away. Every single thing we do ought to build up and push us nearer towards our ultimate goal.
I myself want to get into a top University in America, hopefully Havord! (pretty amitious, eh? Canada's UBC does fine too) then study MBA, get a scholarship, gain experience through working and eventually open a company of my own. That would have been possible if I did extremely well in Singapore. The point of going Canada is that there's a certain culture there. What I mean is, I now think character building is even more important. Top Unis don't just see results, they see many areas including character (and conveniently talents--art?music?). There's always a difference between Asians and Westerners. Is it independance? I hope to learn of this difference and be a mixture of both.
As such to my ultimate aim, I musn't allow any others to distract me from it. I feel that going to Canada may boost my chances of getting to me ultimate goal. Thus I musn't allow firendship to get in the way. I mean, of course friendship is improtant and friends are part of achieving my goal (and their own. Friends help each other, yeah?). But I musn't let friendship itself hold me back.
Also over these year s I have seen the flaws of my character. I have been self-centred sometimes and probably insensitive and lame. Of course I'd have to give myself some time to change that and reflect upon myself.
I will undoubtedly miss every one of my friends. But of course I shall not crumple under that. I must become stronger!
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5:00 AM
Social life is soo complicated. Sometimes I'd wish I'd be an artist when i grow up (sometimes*). They tend to view friendship and relationship rather...differently. But no, I won't be. I can't take all the hypocrisy. Today your artist friend'll be all smiles 'bout something stupid you'd say over dinner and the next day you'd find a political cartoon about what you said. Sheesh. Life can be difficult, eh?
The LSP lesson of the term... As if it was the first time LSP was known to the world the teacher had to make a fuss of intros and showed us a video, talked and was pissed. It was all very dramatic. Asian.
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3:46 AM
Its exactly 2 weeks left. The Sunday on the next next week will be it. Sorta have a lota do dont I? Photos, definitely. Ive hada weird idea from Will 'bout leavin' notes for everyone. Maybe emails are better "Goodbye, please forward this to 34 people of 2J". Ha...Will do.
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9:43 PM
15 days left...Wonder what'd feel like on the night of departure? Would it be just like any other vacation...just probably longer? Longer is too abstract, no. Forever? I dunno whats there in Singapore to hold in reminiscence except for my friends. Yup, just going to a foreign country where I start with absolutely NO friends and nothing to hold on...Piece of cake. Sort of like the first day of school isn't it? Nah... this isn't helping. I shall emo then...then again...maybe not.
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5:35 AM
Hey! Glad to have company again! Shall keep updating my blog since I'm gonna go Canada! Theres gonna be a 16 hours of difference and i guess it's better to "communicate" using my blog. Anyway, will update soon!
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2:15 AM
